These images were made over the span of the last 2 years, in various places and in many states of mind. They represent a search for something, while the something remains uncertain. A search that had already begun back in 2019, when i first moved to the Netherlands, leaving my comfort zone back in New Delhi, India. The ongoing subconscious search led to a realization, a realization and a longing. A realization that I do not belong and a longing to belong. Many confrontational questions arose as a result, questions that remain unanswered to this day, and will perhaps continue to be so.
These are questions about my identity, my identity as an Indian, my identity as a brown person in a western white world.
These are questions about home, about what makes a home, about the feeling of home.
These are questions about my privilege, abut my sense of freedom.
There are so many unanswered questions.
These images represent my state of mind in a way, the feeling of not belonging, the feeling of being stuck in no mans land, in the middle of 2 places, 2 worlds. They are meant to visualize something that can not be visualized. They are supposed to represent a search for something, while the something remains uncertain.